i just want to write..

I feel like writing.just writing and writing , to what end or beginning , i dont know. as i sit here , and look at this keyboard , the 26 alphabets of the english language , arranged haphazardly , {they call it the 'qwerty' effect;)} i dont know what to write about.but i do know that i am disturbed since yesterday.a few things gone wrong here and there , inspite of me doing all i could and having the purest intentions in mind and connecting the dots and vibes , but them connections ,played out a different ball game altogether , courtesy - 'The Mind's of The Others'.

But its ok , and i say to myself - ' Tweety Tweety Tweety ' , DO WHAT THOU WILT , never cross the line of your instinctive impulsiveness or madness , but follow it , it is essential for what you have to do.Long time , slow move - in short the , perspective of the saying-" slow and steady wins the race " is not as simple as it sounds.being slow doesnt mean just moving at a pace which your mind tells you to , rather slow here means taking the right step at the right time ,following your madness ,to the right measure.i have done this and i have felt that sensation of doing right or following yourself.ihave faltered ,badly,at times ,when i let my mind get in the way. i guess , that is why i am disturbed.i let my mind get in the way.but it is so hard to sustain , walking on the lines and still be mortal and in full control of the vibes around you.if you overdo it , it is physically harming.take my example . i overthink and over-well,err,everything , but its reduced now , and as a result , i cannot sleep.the maximum i can sleep is 2 hours or an hour ata stretch .then i wake up and the twisting and turning and the random thoughts of the connections keep playing in my head.this is wrong.it has affected me physically , my weight has dropped since the past two months , i cant eat properly , sometimes i do :) , and i am an insomniac .But i know , since this is just the infant stage of my sweet journey of living with myself , i will be fine.if i am not , i Fucked up.

i feel much better now , outlet is essential , in any form.that is why we , shit and pee :P . nevermind , Tweet Tweety Tweety :).